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I Hate. . .

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Published: Jun 16, 2011

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_{I hate that I was suckered into writing this list.
I hate writing lists.
I hate admitting my weaknesses.
I hate how weak I actually am.
I hate that everyone around me thinks I'm not.
I hate how little things annoy me.
I hate that I can't build a strong relationship with my sister.
I hate thinking that she hates me for it.
I hate that I'm dependant on technology.
I hate being so short.
I hate that it secretly bothers me to be made fun of for it.
I hate that in reality, I'm not that short, people just feel the need to pick on me for it because they have nothing better to say.
I hate that I'm so shallow sometimes.
I hate my girlfriends mom.
I hate that I hate people.
I hate that hate is such a strong word.
I hate how good this is making me feel.
I hate society and it's stupid contradictions and views.
I hate contradictions.
I hate feeling guilty about everything I eat.
I hate that I can't forget about her.
I hate that she's probably forgotten about me.
I hate that it still fucking bothers me.
I hate that I still think about her.
I hate that she was my first everything.
I hate that no matter how much I talk about it, it doesn't change the fact that I miss her.
I hate that I miss her.
I hate how I could go on about her all fucking day and hit up about 30,000 emotions within the first hour of talking about her.
I hate that she won't read this.
I hate that so many of me "I hate"'s are about her.
I hate how jealous I can be of others.
I hate that most of the time, I have no real reason to be jealous.
I hate that I just listened to an entire movie trailer on Youtube, waiting for my song to come on, but I didn't notice it because I was too busy typing this.
I hate that no one gets to know me.
I hate how many compliments I get because of my looks.
I hate that I don't believe a single one of those compliments.
I hate that I can't be who I want to be.
Physically.
Mentally.
And socially.
I hate the girls that complain about older men hitting on them. Have they not seen some of the pictures they put up?
I hate stupid people.
I hate people who act like they know me.
I hate being everybody's counselor.
I hate people who add me only because they think I'm cute.
I hate how I feel the need to use proper grammar. Always.
I hate typing on word.
I hate my current font.
I hate how I can never seem to get my point across.
I hate how I can't fucking cry anymore.
I hate feeling insignificant.
I hate feeling so alone.
I hate that no one gets it.
I hate being labeled.
I hate it when people call me "hun".
I hate that certain people can't get over themselves.
I hate fake people and fake personalities.
But I hate that I envy their confidence.
I hate that all those I can personally relate to don't live anywhere near me.
I hate it when people try to comfort me.
I hate that I can't get close to people.
I hate that it's all because she fucking left.
I hate that my life is totally fucked up now because of her.
I hate that she still smiles.
I hate that I brought her up again.
I hate that I can't hate her.
I hate facebook.
I hate my art.
I hate that I don't have a style when it comes to my art.
I hate how I have to live with so many restrictions.
I hate how there are people out there who have it worse than I do.
I hate fixing other people's problems.
I hate how everyone confides in me.
I hate that I'd hate it even more if they didn't.
I hate that people can't worry about themselves.
I hate that I get picked on for being straight edge.
I hate what drugs and alcohol do to people.
I hate that I know I'd be an alcoholic if I could get my hands on it easily.
I hate that this list is so long.
I hate how people are gonna judge me for it.
I hate how Microsoft Word is telling me "gonna" isn't a word, and now its red and squiggly underlined twice.
I hate the body I was born in.
I hate that I'm so insecure.
I hate that I've fallen into depression, because I used to be such a happy kid. For the most part.
I hate my childhood.
I hate that my childhood issues aren't even half as bad as most.
I hate that I can so easily write something like this, but I can't stay focused for shit in school.
I hate that I get good grades and don't even try.
I hate that I'm not good enough.
I hate that I don't have money.
I hate that people buy me shit.
I hate that this thing is now three pages.
I hate that I can so easily relate to people.
I hate that I'm nothing special.
I hate the people who are going to try to tell me otherwise.
I hate being a procrastinator.
I hate that I'm not a morning person.
I hate that I can't draw what I see in my head.
I hate that I don't have a real sickness like insomnia, or chronic depression, or bulimia to complain about.
I hate that I feel the need to have a reason to complain.
I hate complaining to others.
I hate that I can't express myself through music to the fullest extent.
I hate that I want to be a musician.
I hate that being a musician is so common.
I hate how everyone strives to be different.
I hate that I fall under that category.
I hate ignorance.
I hate immaturity.
I hate that none of you know who I really am.
I hate that none of you have caught on by now.
I'd hate it even more if you did.
I hate feeling like such an outcast.
I hate the use of the word "emo".
I hate it when people abuse the words "I love you".
I hate that I'm guilty of the above statement.
I hate that I dated him, because I feel like I used him.
I hate that he has to feel so guilty.
I hate that he loved me so much.
I hate that I couldn't return that feeling.
I hate that I had to give up something so good because of my sexuality.
I hate my sexuality.
I hate myself in most ways.
I hate clichés.
I hate relating completely to a song.
I hate that I can't write the way I intend to.
I hate that I'm going to be adding to this all the fucking time.
I hate how this list is making me so depressed; it's supposed to help.
I hate kids.
I hate my cell phone.
I hate cartoons.
I hate how cartoons these days rape kids of their purity.
I hate that I lost my virginity at such a young age.
I hate that I don't whole-heartedly regret that.
I hate school.
I hate rules.
I hate society.
I hate that I think I repeated that last one. But I really fucking do.
I hate that I'm not a REAL photographer.
I hate that I take pictures with the same poses as everyone else.
I hate that I take so many pictures of myself.
I hate loud noises.
I hate yelling.
I hate violence.
I hate that I ever hit a girl.
I hate the sickening feeling it gives me whenever I think about it.
I hate that you're all going to judge me about that when you don't know the situation.
I hate that the situation doesn't make the action any more deserved.
I hate that I ever cut.
I hate even more that I got caught.
I hate how my mom knows everything.
I hate how easily I can act like everything's okay.
I hate my humour.
I hate not being British.
I hate Black Veil Brides.
I hate dramatic makeup.
I hate hiding from everyone.
I hate girly girls.
I hate obnoxious people.
I hate that I know that as soon as I upload this, I'll think of 586487643897 more things to include on this list.
I hate feeling helpless.
I hate the kind of people my family consists of.
I hate waiting.
I hate my body type.
I hate long lines.
I hate standing for long periods of time.
I hate how everyone now has "ADHD".
I hate how medication is used for everything.
I hate drama.
I hate how many people are making these lists.
I hate that I'm running out of what to say.
I hate how hard it is for me to fall asleep.
I hate how much I think about shit.
I hate thinking about what I shouldn't be thinking about.
I hate how I never get to go anywhere awesome.
I hate that I hate so many things.
I hate getting personal with myself and breaking down my own walls.
I hate people who try to break down my walls for me.
I hate trying to explain myself.
I hate being asked a question more than once.
I hate giving my answer more than once.
I hate not being heard.
I hate celebrities.
I hate fashion and how important it is.
I hate how this list ends just like that.}